im finally back for posting! haha! long long time nvr post le. cause was dam tired nd lazy xD.

bb competitions are finally over... din make it... but it was a great try.. those fewweaks are dam tired and sick for me... first match we won against naval base. nth to talk about.. we playing fairly well... coach was alrdy complaining.. but i was top scorer =) was nervous bef that match a it was the first one.

second one was two days later.. against chung cheng high yishun.. lost but it was one the the best for us.. we play excellent. coach praised.. our players laughed. but i din.. just find it wasted. coach scold when we win and praise when we lose. weird. ;D. from then onwards im starting to feel weak all over my body alrdy. tired and falling sick that time.

3 rd match against PHS. wow. that match was like the most difficult to play match. tall ppl with pro skills.unstoppable. of course we lost it. but we played average only. coach was complaining bout the first half but praising in the second.

fourth match was against riverside. we lost hope alrdy. cause we knew that we coulden make it to second round anymore. but at least we tried our best =). we won tem in this match. was a exciting one. left 10 secs, we were leading 1 point only. and they were holding the possesion of the ball. scary. but in the end we won to a 24-21 victory. lucky. but that was when im half way to my brking dwn.

last match, was against canbera sec. the worst match ive ever played. and i mean it. i was totally off. got totally pissed and fucked up. the guy lost the ball and tripped, iwas going to get the ball. he PURPOSELY kicked my leg and made me touched the ball and let it roll out. wtf. bastard. i alrdy go pissed aft this. next, when i was laying up. the guy pushed my out without a foul.. wtf!? the ref cock eye of what?! blind. that was when i totally broke down. and coulden play anymore. everything i did was a mistake in the match.

reached school, was dam emo and angry with myself. wish i could turn back time and redo everything that i regretted doing.. i punched the wall once hardly and dam hard. was pain. but is worth it. till now its injured. am going to the docter maybe tmr.. sigh.. i dont wish it would be a minor one. i need a major injury. so hat i can finally wake up from my dream.

ive promised someone something. and its to stop playing bb outside. and ill keep to my promise. im gonna stop playing bb for the next few months. i dont wish to touch any bballs outside school. only in cca which im only going for once a week. im keeping to my pormise.

thats all bah.

LoYLeE

hope you care.
and i promised.